Living truths

Moved.

2009-10-13T21:48:00.002+08:00

sexy ladyees, i've moved.

www.talkingsnail.blogspot.com

I might or might not blog here. : D

Last post.

2009-08-25T23:51:00.002+08:00

Mom&Dad, millions of thankyou(s) for bringing me to this world.Without you guys, I'd never come this far, the .And yes not forgetting, the irrating brother of mine.You've been a great brother/bestfriend to crap/beat/laugh/cry with though you can really get under my skin at times.I love you the same though you can punch me till I've blueblacks.Next, the most blessed friends someone can ever have, DEWACKS.I love you guys to bits, and thanks for every single memories we have since our diapers days.Thanks to F&H for being a part of my life, thanks for all those memories we have till the day we got to know each other.To all those people who have come and gone in my life, thanks for being a part too.And lastly, my new found friends.It's sucha blessing to have you guys in my life, to get to see you guys everyday in school.Though it has been only months we met, I'm proud that we have created a great bond.Lastly lastly lastly, Happy birthday sexy nurse : D

Ps.Thanks babygirl for the great shock which almost made my heart leap out of my ribcage.

Paper planes.

2009-08-18T21:12:00.004+08:00

Jump, fly, fall, live, scream, laugh, cry, smile.

Study break, exams, attachment, holiday.And It starts all over again.

Oh life, it just go round and round.Why don't you just step to the finishing line soon? See you soon.

And many love to the sexyhotpretty people around me.Life's good with you all around.

For now, let's studystudystudy till we fly high.

Nights.

Kismat.

2009-08-13T00:00:00.005+08:00

All bad things comes to an end, the reason why you're not here.

I'm so dead.Literally.

Forgive-ness.

2009-08-10T01:38:00.002+08:00

For whom/what I've been, forgive me all.

God knows why, he knows it all.

Sorry.

Be-lated birthday Sing-a-pore.

2009-08-10T01:12:00.005+08:00

Last mintue plans.It just felt different this year, like something/someone(s) was amiss.But yes, I had fun.Thanks GWC/Hunnies.

Ps.For more pictures, I'll upload them in facebook (:

Sick-bird.

2009-08-08T23:09:00.004+08:00

I almost died today.
Millions thankyous to prati and susu for taking care (:

I'll update soon.
Now, my head is spinning and spinning and spinning.

Run baby jump.

2009-08-07T23:47:00.003+08:00

She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance. She is slim woman, who walks with confident and proud. She has an egg shape facial structure, high and round forehead. She likes to look straight as if she is searching. She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks. You will see Virgo woman walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection.

She is very delicate of what and how she dress. She is bright and easily despairs with obstacles. She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now. She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expects respect from her love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate.

If she finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is her discipline. She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase. She likes a gentleman who opens the doors for her. She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman.

She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. She can really keep secret; you can trust her on this. She likes a refreshing and a mild scent. She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin. Do not comment her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full times as a self beautifier.

She is not an innocent angle for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently. She only searches for true love, not just any love. Her love is an ideal one.

She likes to think no one is neater than and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angle again. If you have a date with her, you’d better be there on time. Flowers and sweet word can calm her down.

If you want to say sorry, make it brief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up event; it could lead you to another world war. She likes her man to dress nice and clean. She is good in details especially with money. Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny. In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much.

Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too. Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress, and the way you talk. If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can.

I believe almost all of them sounds true about me (:

Hellogoodbye

2009-08-07T01:13:00.003+08:00

As funny as it seems, I'm happy with where I'm standing now.

But the truth has changed, the fact has changed.

But still the past remains.

I do miss you, at times.

Much love.

Hypersomia

2009-08-07T00:55:00.003+08:00

Life's random, you might know that too.Gone for good ass, don't come back.Anyway, school has been real hectic these days.Exams are nearing.Thank god, I'm almost done with the presentations.There's only one left to be done which is CNP.Practical test went on well and I was really flying on cloud nine when I passed.It made me smile like a mad girl the whole day.Moving on, next week, I'm down with AAP practical test and FON test.Oh god, you can just take me from this earth.I really feel the stress as every days passes by.For god's sake, I don't know why I feel time's passing by too fast.Maybe I'm not the only one who's thinking of that? I just realised it's almost going to be a year since I last went to my old school.And yes, I miss secondary school and the beautiful people over there :( Anyway, attachment is in like another three weeks time.I just feel everything is being rushed, as if someone is pressing the foward button.Gosh, the feeling sucks actually.My eyes are soon going to pop out if I still rant on.Actually, I don't know what I've been ranting on for the past ten mintues.I miss my babes.

Nights sunshines&moonlights.

Ps; Yay, yay! Birthday is in another 19more days (: But actually, it's no big deal.

Be with you(s).

2009-08-03T23:51:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry for not updating for such a long long time.I believe I'm just busy with school and I do really take an effort to catch up my sleep on weekends.Exams are nearing and heart's aching.Yes, finally project are nearly done.Once, I'm done with psychology presentation tomorrow.I'll have only one more project to get done with.There's still NSL practical test on wednesday and MIC mock exam on thursday.And yes, careplan is due this wednesday too.Oh gosh, these are killing me.Not forgetting, AAP practical test is next week. -.= I've got like more than thousands pictures that's waiting to be posted but for updates, just visit my facebook (: I'll be back when I feel like coming back.Till then, happy reading sunshine(s) and moonlight(s).

Ps.Actually, there's nothing much to read.
Pss.I almost said you were "perfect".Wise saying, never judge a book by its cover.

Infected.

2009-07-18T23:28:00.003+08:00

Harry potter.

I'll update soon.

Schoolmateys.

2009-07-16T00:31:00.003+08:00

THE ONES WHO MAKES IT THE BEST TO BE IN.

Oxoxoxoxo, Kocose-ayz.

Think, thought, think, thought.

2009-07-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

Baby, smile like you mean it.My mind is blank and I've got nothing to blog about.Looking foward to next friday.I might be going movie with my dewacks' babies.If only they don't back out last mintue.Coming to the point, school's is going resume tomorrow.Happy, happy not.Looking foward to long bus rides.Near or far, I miss you people.

Nights readers.Update next week.

oxoxoxoxoxoxox.

Ps.Rest in peace dude.Though I was never close to you.I still have vivid memory of you.With much love, ALENA.

Pique.

2009-07-11T12:28:00.003+08:00

Give me a pat on the back and I'll tell you why when I reach 27.

A very very very weird dream.Maybe I should just called it a nightmare .The thought of that still makes me laugh my ass out.It had been long since you even came past my mind and I could actually dream of you.Weird! Yay, holiday is ending soon.Which mean school's going to be in soon.Well a part of me still wishes for school holiday to be longer because I will miss sleeping till noon and etc.All the common test results are out and I flunk two of the modules. :( No use crying over split milk.Oh well, maybe this term I will have to work harder....I'll update later.

Make a vow to break it, and yes I did break it.Pretend It doesn't hurt when It's burning you up.But what would you do if you are already burnt inside out? It's a matter of time.Just some time.You just need to learn to trust once again, like you did.

Lord, bless us.

oxoxoxoxoxoxox.

Ps.Not forgetting, I WOULD LIKE TO WELCOME MY FRIEND, JENNY GURUNG TO MY MAGGIE LAND WITH OPEN ARM.HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Kaise mujhe tum mil gayhe.

2009-07-07T00:11:00.007+08:00

Hello girlishboyishgirlboy.It's been long since I last posted a post with words and pictures.I don't know why I'm having the urge to blog today.Attachment went on well, It was as bad as I had expected it to be.Well, I feel that time's flying.I'm only left with six days of holidays left.. :( But still, I miss school.I miss Afa.I miss classmates.I miss the food.I miss the environment.In short, I miss school.I've got of tons of projects piled up to be down.So far, holiday's going on great.And guess what, I'm addicted to the sims 2.I can't stop playing it.They actually say that the sims is a game for lonely people..LOL.It had been long since I last plugged in my earpiece to sleep.I did that last night because I was being insomniac.It had been long since I last thought about life like how I used to.I realised I'm sailing a boat without a goal.I feel like I'm dreaming without sleeping, with eyes wide open.I've seen things and I let them pass through me like how the sand passes throught the hour glass.I've made the mistakes before and I claimed that I've learned but I still see myself making the same mistakes again.And yes, I've flunk two of my common test papers.Shitxzz.But It was expected as revisions were only done at the eleventh hour.I guess It's time for me to pull my sock high.Till then, nights readers :)

Ps.And JENNY, i will send your pictures soon.

Attached.

2009-06-25T19:27:00.002+08:00

Let the hour glass pass right into my ashes.

I'll blog soon.

If love was a game, you'd be the loser.

2009-06-10T23:30:00.002+08:00

Spread the love people.

Bear the hatred.

Toss it up.

2009-06-04T21:21:00.003+08:00

Apologies for not updating for ages.Everything seems to be getting done in a breeze.School's been good.I'm already done with FON and PAS common test which I totally screwed up.Oh well, you can just bless me for the remaining papers.I wish I had the power to stop time.I really need motivate myself to study.I don't wish to repeat the same mistakes I did before.Oh well, I've to get back to my dear muscles, bones and heart.

Love readers.

Figure it out.

2009-05-17T21:44:00.003+08:00

Meet my new boyfriend, heh!My very own creation. : )
Oh well, I'm just feeling so lazy to blog.This week has been fairly good ( : School has been great, thanks to my lovely mates.Anyways, had the girls over at my crib today.We played around with Jenny's BP set.As usual, we were bitching on the usual stuffs.Well, which humans don't bitch?Well yesterday, I actually went jogging after a long time.And right now, my whole body is aching.I've like four upcoming test next week.Dreading every thought of it, good old days of burning midnight oil and pens are here again : ( Actually, I'm just ranting on to make this post longer because some people always complain that my blog is plain boring with too little words.I just hope for a great week ahead.

Till then, nights readers.

Lovelove.

Nights readers.

Ps;Actually, I don't miss a thing about you.HAHAH!

Pens&Books-Fever.

2009-05-17T00:14:00.003+08:00

Happy weekend people. : )

Coming soon~

Happy Momma's day : D

2009-05-10T20:34:00.002+08:00

Dear mum, I love you.Thanks for everything you've given me till this far.You're the best thing I ever had in my life.Everlasting love, that's you. <333>

Much love.

True or False

2009-05-08T21:55:00.002+08:00

I'm not pretending.Everytime I come across something, there's something that reminds me of you.Why do I even bother ranting on someone who has most prolly sailed through thousand miles ahead of me.Sometimes I do regret saying those words to you, the words that changed your attidude to me overnight.But on second thoughts, I admit that without you in my life, I can live without any worries.Fuckshittxxzzzz, I wish I could just lose my memory, sometimes.

Oh well, day went on.School was good, like always.I'm truly gald that I've found great friends : ) I just dread the part where I've to wake up early just to get my ass to school. -.- But seriously time's like flying.It feels like just yesterday I started school, but it's soon going be a month.But still, I'm not catching any balls on any modules.Oh well, I still hate books.Anyway today, I stayed back in school to watch Ayat ayat cinta with Afa, JJ and Punam.Nice movie :) Watching sad movies with AFA can be totally fun, esp when she starts to get all teary, HAHA! No offence uh babe :D Yes, my eyes are auto-closing itself.

Goodnight readers, love : D

PS:Boy oh boy, just for once, can I just say I don't miss you at all?

I wann-a touch.

2009-05-02T23:50:00.004+08:00

Finally, I've got the time to spare for the cyberworld.I've been missing out a lot since school started.I haven't even gotten the chance to see some of my babes.Day was good.I was actually planning to go jogging with parents but in the end, I ended up sleeping the whole day.I was too lazy to drop my ass down to play basketball too so ended up having the two girls over my house.Oh well, I'm feeling sleepy again.Lord, bless me.I get tired easily these days.I'm still adjusting to the new "school" life. : ( I hate waking up early, I hate rushing myself to school every single weekday, I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! By the way, I miss SUGIE AND HIMALI real bad. :' ( I miss Eliz the cat,Nazzy the wazzy and my dearest 4E209 babes and dudes.Oh well, let's just face reality.

Goodnight.

PS:Goneforgood,Goneforbad.It has been your loss, not mine.

Every cloud has a sliver lining.

2009-05-01T21:22:00.003+08:00

Someone claimed to me that she's tired of seeing of the picture of the pink rose.HAHAHHAHAH! Day out with NITATHEBABY was good.I felt sick after walking for few hours.By the way school's going on good with great friends.I'll upload pictures of mates real soon. :D

I feel sick.

Goodnight, Happy weekend!

PS:Did I say I hated you?

Time stood still, till today.

2009-04-24T22:46:00.003+08:00

Baby, I can feel your halo.

Life's good, even without a bed of roses.

Goodnight people, happy weekend! : )

I'm so paid.

2009-04-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

Limited freedom.

2009-04-19T15:10:00.004+08:00

A ray of light, A ray of hope.

2066.

2009-04-14T02:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2066.

Coming soon........pending.

Heart-less.

2009-04-13T20:05:00.002+08:00

A good day, hello..School is going resume in a week time.I'm actually dreading the thought of it.The thought of waking up early, burning-midnight-oil, always doing work at the eleventh hour..The thoughts of all these makes me.....Oh well.

Bye.

Ps: Didn't I told you once? That I'd be happy without you..Ass.

Peru.

2009-04-11T17:49:00.003+08:00

I'm not dead yet.

See you real soon.

PS;back to full house.Bye

Peru.

2009-04-11T17:49:00.000+08:00

I'm not dead yet.

See you soon.

Back to fullhouse.HAHAHAHHA!

Far-away, I thought it was "see you again".

2009-04-04T01:49:00.002+08:00

I still remember the day,

We cried our hearts out,

With the sound of the waves crashing,

With a glass of red wine,

With the thoughts of life without them by our side,

Be strong babes, we'll sail through the ups and downs.

Ps:Dedicated to the ones who're not here.

We'll be there soon, real soon. : D

With love,

ALENA.

Blue-black, with the thoughts of you.

2009-03-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

2008,O level stress(not sure true about this part, haha!) and lastly having that someone in my life....It sounds sick, maybe look sick to the people who're anti love to read my blog..cause I'm always ranting about that someone.But I just can't help it, fcuk.Oh well, I'm sick as in literally sick for now.I've been feel nausea for the past few hours..no dirty thoughts people. : D I've been dreading to teach these days.The kids are driving me up the wall.Sooner, they will have me land up in IMH(I'm sure not kidding), they are like bunch of monkeys.Oh well, it's so hard to get money in the pocket.Another bad news, I've been gaining weight like every week and it's killing me.School's going start in another three weeks time and yes part of me is dreading that though.Life oh life, get sick of me soon.

Nights people.

PS;Every little things you used to do/say, I miss them all.It isn't about missing you.It's just the thought of you not being in my life, not even as a friend.Trust me, It doesn't hurt anymore.Sometimes, I think it's all god's play.Karma, what goes around comes around.Yes sleepyhead, I miss you dearly..let go.

Drawings.

2009-03-26T13:59:00.005+08:00

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA!(inside joke)

Oh well, miss you skinny boju.Meet up soon : D

Safe flight.

2009-03-26T13:46:00.005+08:00

Overnights, Airport trips, Hotcakes, Coffee.

Have a safe flight, be back real soon. <33

Farewell(s).

2009-03-25T12:50:00.003+08:00

Another one more gone.

Farewell(s) my friends.We'll be there soon.

<33

-.-

2009-03-23T02:13:00.003+08:00

Silence conquers it all.Don't you think so? In a few days time, Priya the great joker will be leavng Singapore for good.Bless her : D I didn't even realised the day passing by today.I spent the whole day sleeping.Someone think that I'm sad and I don't want to admit it.Oh bless that dearest friend of mine.She's none other than that girls who misses her boyfriend like crazy.Oh well, I'm preparing myself to deal with her tomorrow after she reads my blog.

Goodnight.

PS: BABES, I'M UNCONTACTABLE THROUGH MY CELLPHONE.ANYTHING, BEEP ME AT MY LANDLINE.TY.

Psss;Lord, thank you for the people around me.

Sea-food.

2009-03-22T01:43:00.011+08:00

"Learn to MYOB", quoted by NITA.Oh well, it's so true D: Oh well, after so long, I felt the way I did just now.It just makes me miss you more.I just needed a listening ear so that I could whine like a bitch.Fuck it man.Still having the hangover of eating too much prawns, crabs, fishballs.Let the pictures do the talking.

So long people.

Ps;I hate being what I'm being to you.I don't like avioding you like a virus.I've been in the same boat as you, indeed I'm in the same boat as you right now.It sucks, I know.But you leave me with no choice.Life's not fair, but love's not any better.Get used to it.I feel sinful.It do hurt, but I can't help.Lord, I'm sorry for who\what I've been.I'm truly sorry.For now, spread the love people.

:DDD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRASHANT.

2009-03-20T01:06:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday 17th PRASHANT.

All the best in your life.Thanks for being such a great joker.Study hard, don't fool around too much.Time and tide waits for no men.

: )

you can be Jack, I'll shall be Sally.

2009-03-20T00:03:00.002+08:00

I feel restless.

I feel like screaming out aloud.

I feel like flying off the rollar coaster.

I feel like _____________________________.

Fill in the blanks.

In short, I feel helpless.Like totally.

And times like this, I miss my bestest best friend NESH pretty bad.

Un-successful, It said.I GO WHOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

2009-03-16T21:31:00.003+08:00

Guess what, guess what, guess what, guess what?

JUST GUESS WHAT!!!!?

I didn't get in NYP.I'm in NP alone but that's not the fucking problem.It's just that I'll have to wake up one hour earlier to go school every single weekday. -.- Okay, I'm so so so so so so pissed right now na na na na na na na na.HAHAHAHHA! Anyways half of my block has just blackout and some people are screaming in excitement.-.- They'll know how it feels when they stay in NEPAL when there's load shedding.Oh well, nights.

AND FUCK YOU BOY, I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Guess who's back.

2009-03-14T20:24:00.003+08:00

I almost died today.Cold sweats, stomach cramps and vomitting.I never felt this sick ever before.Oh well sleepover was postphone because of me.Sorry babes! Thanks to this monthly issue.Being a girl is like so -.-""""".

Getting bit dizzy up there again.

So long!

Ps: Then I believe it's for good this time, yes ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

3am, your offical time.

2009-03-13T23:31:00.004+08:00

Goddammit, I miss my cousins in Nepal pretty badly.It just aches my heart to think of the state they're in right now.With the death of someone so dear, I wonder how they are taking it.A lump formed in my throat when I spoke to one of them last night.I almost teared in front of my whole family.It's just so heart-aching.Sighs.Oh well, someday I'll have to die too.I guess, it's just part and partials of life.Oh well, day went on well.It's the same day everyday but today I played basketball for the first time ever since I came back from Nepal, coool right? Anyways sleepover party was postphoned to tomorrow because everything seemed so last mintue.Oh well, we are totally good at doing last minute planning.I just hope it will work out tomorrow. : ) And yes I got to admit, I miss you quite terribly.

So long! :)

Ps; I don't know why I feel so happy today, whooohooooo.

Old times.

2009-03-10T00:20:00.002+08:00

Once again, It's past midnight.I keep telling myself that i'll kick this habit of staying up and waking up only when it's past noon.Haha, it seems that I don't have a life.Firstly I'm unemployed, secondly staying at home is getting me fatter because I keep cooking food to eat, and lastly, I'm short of cash. : ( Eat, sleep, wake up, aerobics, computer, movies.That's how I've been spending my days.Oh well, I guess life in Nepal was pretty was fun.At least, things and food there are much cheaper than Singapore.Haisss! When I was there, I couldn't wait to get my ass her, now when I'm back I can't stop complaining.Oh life oh, humans are just too selfish.

Ps; This picture above was taken months ago exactly on 12.01am while on the way back home after a group study.Oh babes, I really miss those old good shits.Espically HIMALI THE NAKALI.

So long, goodnight.

Pss: I've lost counts of the apologys you made to me.

NEW MSN: kocose-ayz@hotmail.com

Love lockdown.

2009-03-08T23:21:00.003+08:00

Under the moonlight, under the bed of twinkling stars.

Thoughts in my mind run dry.Emotions run dry too.It seems like I've becoming numb to every little things in this world.I've always waited for these days in my life and now I wish it never apporoach so quick.To those who are miles away from me, I miss you guys badly.To those who are just a call away but still so far, I miss you too.Life's been good, a true bliss.I just hope it stays this way for a long long long time.I'm just hoping for the best for my appeal results.I don't wish to wake up extra early to board a bus for an hour just to reach a school. -.- Oh well, life's random and so are humans.It's just like someone whom you'd been close for a long time yet a total stranger the next mintue.Just like how you're to me now.But I made the choice, and the right one indeed.Cause I know you'll forget me like how you did once, right? hahahahah! Boys oh boys, they'll always be boys.

Last goodnights, First Goodmornings.

So long, people.

Girl-F R I E N D S

2009-03-08T23:09:00.002+08:00

There's still many pictures waiting to be uploaded but I just can't be bothered to.Sighs.Anyway shopping with Rasayang and Nitu was fun.My feet are aching badly.

Nights.

Beloved.

2009-03-07T23:47:00.003+08:00

Thanks for the memories.I hope you'll rest in peace.For I know, you are already in the hands of god.Seeing you go through so much, I rather you'd take your leave earlier.Thanks for being the best aunt ever, for playing snake and ladder with me when I was bored, for cooking me delicious food when I was hungry, for all those times you were there.I'm really going miss you.I had never lost someone so dear to me before, never lost to the extent that I could never see you or hear your voice again.I just hope you'll rest in peace.

Amen.Lord, please be with her.

Heart-fixed.

2009-03-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turns into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, say what's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive

My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turns into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life in someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you

you showed me out the door.

2009-03-05T10:48:00.002+08:00

I've written so many goodbyes which I thought was meant for good, but they turned out all lies.

No more monday's blues.

2009-03-03T00:10:00.004+08:00

Happy Tuesday people.

Ps:Long long long time ago.

Stranger

2009-03-01T22:19:00.003+08:00

Vibe

2009-02-28T23:14:00.008+08:00

I want make up right na na na na

2009-02-28T01:09:00.002+08:00

Forfeit the lies.

This is how I kill my boresome while staying at home.Sometimes, I'd rather wish I was in still in Nepal.But it does really feel good being here.But things just don't seem right.What happened to all the plans we had after Os? It's the same routine everyday.Wake up, eat, sleep! The new motto of living life, hahah! Anyway had lunch with GWC today.At least they are fun people though at times they can be pretty much two-faced.Boys went home while we girls came my house to catch the new hindi movie.I swear it wasn't as fun as it had been recommended as.Or were we too busy chatting among ourselves.Maybe Jenny was the only one who watched the movie entirely, bless her.HAHA! Tomorrow, Ras wants us to follow to her coach's church.We're actually planning to shop around first so hopefully our plan will work out.I'm happy and I'm so so so so so over him.Trust me baby.

Ps; The first happy post I ever posted.

Made for Nepal.

2009-02-27T12:13:00.010+08:00

PS; Just some of it :D

2.05am

2009-02-27T02:05:00.002+08:00

I really miss those old good times.

When we still had those innocent smile on our face,

When we still could walk without having a heavy heart,

When we still could laugh without faking a laugh,

When we still could say it was life we're living.

Friends faraway from me, I really miss you guys.

Dedicated to Sugie, Mali, Tana and Nesh.

I'd had enough, don't you think so?

2009-02-23T23:34:00.003+08:00

How I wish I could be there for you now.Anger builds up within me, I can't do much to help you.Stay strong, know that we're always there for you girl.I miss you much.

"Time teaches someone to let go".

Trust me, it does really.It's been already few days I've been here.Though heart feels good, mood doesn't seem to well.I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.I'm just hoping for school to start soon.I'm going bonkers staying home doing nothing all day long.I never knew life'd be so boring.Headache is killing.

So long.

PS: Finally, I'd had enough of you.As days passes, you make me hate you more.Stay away from me for now.Chao.

I can wait forever.

2009-02-22T01:19:00.003+08:00

Finally back in Singapore.I can't wish for more now.Life here is so much better than living in Nepal.With sixteen hours of load shedding, life is like so difficult after staying in Singapore for a long time.You even have to fear going out late at night.I'm more than just glad to be here back.I missed my gfs&bfs badly.For now, I'm missing the three nakalis and tana badly.Let just wait patiently till we meet again.Till then, takecare of yourselves well. :) For now, it feels like we don't have any life.For now, I'm getting tired of every little things in this world.Even the thought of you kills me boy.Numbed with all those pain you put me through.Being faraway from you for a long time, I'd thought you were forgotten.Trust me, I'm tired of fooling myself.Stay away from me, I'll let go.You keep coming back, you keep going back.When you call, the heart stops beating.When you leave, the heart never stops bleeding.It hurts much.Get over it.

So long.

Over new year, Over you.

2009-01-16T18:37:00.002+08:00

New year is over.What can I say about my holiday.Three months seems so long.Thanks to the cold weather here.I'm like freezing all day long.This load saving is killing me too.I'm so disappointed with my f.results.Thinking of it now, who can I blame? I can only look at myself in the mirror.Life sucks! I miss Mspicy badly.I miss F&H.I miss brother.I miss my bed.I miss my handphone.I miss my computer.Sigh, one more month.

Takecare people.

Trust me, I'm getting over you.You were just another illusion.You were just another mistake of my life.Goodbye, life has its ways.

Boresome

2008-11-15T12:13:00.002+08:00

Rule #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Rule #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
-Yes, who don't?

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
- My friends are actually falling, HAHAHAH!

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
- No, yes?

4. Which is more blessed,loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Loving someone.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- I'm already in love with them, hahah!

6. Who is currently important to you?
- Family, friends (:

7. Would you give it all in a relationship?
- No, never!

8. If the person whom u loved once or now is attached,what will you do?
- Move on baby!

9. What is the most important thing in ur life?
- Dreams, goals.But right now -.-

10. What will you do with a billion dollars?
-Keep some for myself and give it to parents.

11. List out 15 persons which you can think of right now.
-Jenny, Nita, Nancy, Jana, Laxmi, Anita, Fred, Ras, Prati, Shahim, Besh, Kent, Sam, Numa

12. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
-Yes, when I saw my canon cam

13. What makes you happy?
- I don't know

14. What makes you angry?
-Right now, it's _________.(FUCK YOU)

15. Favourite colour(s)?
-Red, White, Yellow.

16. What is your view towards love?
-It's just an emotion that kills you slowly.

17. Love or like?
-Like.

18. Would you stead with a guy whom you knew less than 1 week?
-No, or depends.

19. How are you feeling right now?
-Totally screwed.

2o. Tag 5 people for this quiz to pass on.
-HAHA, if you bored.Just do it (:

Last regrets

2008-11-10T22:26:00.005+08:00

The moment we've been waiting for is finally going to be here.It is going feel like a heavy load is being taken off from our mind, soul and heart.I can't wait for it to be over.Monday's blues are going to be over too because there'll be no school, haha! Thinking of life without school for months is making me so high.But still I'm going miss all those fun times with my schoolmates and classmates.Jeeez, all those memories and how far we've come through.From the first day of school to today, everyone has changed pretty much.People, keep me in your memories.

Love.

Ps:I seriously can't get you out of my mind, fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM.

2008-11-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Sam.Best wishes in every step you take.Be happy always.Friends forever, enjoy your day dude. \m/

Hate, hating, hated.

2008-11-09T00:35:00.005+08:00

Time is running out.Days left to go Nepal has only like ten days left.Sooner, the day will be here.And when I come back next year, majority of my friends will be gone.The hardest thing one has to do is to say goodbye.Sigh, but yes life has it's ways.Okay, Saturday went on well.Rasayang, Sugie and Beetle came over my house to watch a movie.Anyways, I'm back with bangz, yayayayness.But I'm looking like a boy -.- Lala, life cha.

Love.

Dear god

2008-11-07T23:19:00.005+08:00

People, Happy Friday Day.Time's running out.A new week will soon end.Exactly, 12 more days and I would be in Nepal.Os will be offically over next week and life would be a bliss soon.That living truth is actually eating my Nitu's heart.Pooor her! I'm so sorry that I disappoint you.I didn't meant for it to happen, oh well.Please don't kill me when you meet me, thank you honey.

Love.
HAPPY WEEKENDS PEOPLE.

Liar in the glass jar.

2008-11-05T01:29:00.005+08:00

Lights dim down, were the stars tonight
Their voices bring slight wind to the sky
Their voices sing along, feel their souls lift with ours

As they share the night
but you sing a different song.

Again&again, I kept letting you in.

It's hard to say the goodbye again.

Play save, we'll skip the goodbyes.

Still, you will be my favourite hello.

& my hardest goodbye.

Finally, not.

2008-11-05T01:17:00.003+08:00

Messages to send to those I love.

Yes, life seems like a bliss these days.Let pictures talk, I'm tired.

Emotionally,mentally,physically.

So long, goodnight.

Apologys

2008-11-01T12:55:00.001+08:00

Fill in the blank with white lies.

Are you done fooling me? Or am I just being an insecure bitch?

I need answers.Sigh :/

Notice you, noticing me.

2008-10-31T17:11:00.003+08:00

I dance in fear of my own life.I know those mistakes I've made.Now it's all too late to regret or to turn back the hands of time.Repeating words that bring me down, it feels empty.For all I know, I"ve to be well prepared.What has been done cannot be undone.For now, let me enjoy this limited freedom without any worries.

Goodbye.

ps; Just two more, and its over.

Happy birthday love.

2008-10-31T17:08:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday love.

Best wishes in every step you take in life.

I'm here for you always.

Love you much, rock on \m/

Ps;I hope you won't mind the picture up there, I can't find any better.
Muhahaha <33

Beautiful lies

2008-09-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

I fall asleep by the telephone
It's 2 O'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone

I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
Your love is just a lie
(Lie)
It's nothing but a lie
(Lie)

You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that i trust you
And do you think about me when he fucks you?
Could you be more obscene?

So dont try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know,
Your love is just a lie
(Lie)
It's nothing but a lie
(Lie)
You're nothing but a lie

You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
(Lie
I know you're nothing but a lie

Your love is a lie

Sakura oh sakura.

2008-09-21T21:27:00.005+08:00

Trust me, life isn't getting any better.One more month of sufferings and it will all be over.I just hope, I'll be able to make it through.Weird dreams has really motivated me to study.I just hope to get this Os done sooner.It seems like a heavy burden upon me.Sigh.Oh yeah, thanks MR OEI for the treat.Babes and I met up with Mr.Bear for lunch at Sakura today.After eating to the fullest, headed to fareast to shop around.Trust me, everytime I go to sakura, I feel thousand times heavier than ever.Sucks! Soon got done with all those shopping and headed back home with goldfish, beetle and rihno.As usual the awesome three stayed back to shop still.Haha!

Life without them, guess I'll go mad.Seriously, hais.Time's running out.Soon, we'll all be much faraway from one another.Just the thoughts running through makes me sick enough.Oh life :(

Okay, I won't be blogging for a long long time from now.

Os, here I come.

CHAO LOVE.

oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxox.

Last goodbyes

2008-09-20T23:41:00.002+08:00

Last final goodbye.Let go of you, let go of me.Find your happiness, I'm not yours.We had it once, but never twice.For all these moments, I couldn't believe I lived in perfect illusions.

Words can never express how you mean to me, but time has to let go.It's all too late.Someday I believe you'd understand, what goes around comes around.I'm sorry

Goodbye, she said.One last time, he promised.

Ps:Dear, I hate you.

2008-09-07T18:49:00.000+08:00

you've taken this too far
now it has to stop
you've taken this too far

once again
the table's turned
and i'm behind
picking up the pieces from the night

my face is scarred
sometimes
i feel that i can't trust myself at all

and every time the sky
(every time the sky)
breaks open with sunshine
as streaming swords collide
(streaming swords collide)
it takes me back in time

i float away
to another place
where heaven is waiting
right outside

this is war
can I take it anymore? (can I take it anymore?)
i'm falling faster and bleeding more
than i have bled before
certain death (this blade will carve the purpose)
lingers on the other hand (and make you feel defeated)
but i will fight you
and victory will be mine in the end

circumstances mean nothing
when it's over
we will be
heroes constantly
pushing forward without any fear

if i erased the line between
forgotten days and memories
i'd never change

resolutions made (in vain)
to face
[play out] the day
life is yours to save (save it)
or take (take it) away

Fifteen's words.

2008-08-26T19:57:00.002+08:00

I hold onto your words,
Just to see tomorrow's sunrise.
Only after hearing your voice,
I see the moonlight at night.
And tonight will be the night I will fall for you over again,
I won't live to see another day.
To find someone like you,
Is impossible to find.

I didnt understood why.
I still dont understand why.
yet you seem just like another stranger in my life.
Once again I cant deny whatever I felt for you was true
Whoever I am today, you are too blame.
These eyes are looking for someone, you are the cause
When the rainbow shows up, you are the cause
When a smile appears, you are the cause
When someday you turn back to me, the day never comes
Why?
It is.
Always you.

Hahahahaha.Oh man, I can't believe I actually wrote those words.Sixteen, a new start.

Chao love!

Ps: Oh beautiful peoples, thanks once again.

For the smile on my face.

26AUGUST1992

2008-08-26T19:09:00.003+08:00

Sixteen, yes at last.

I'd like to thanks all the people around me for making this day worthwhile.

& Congratulation my better half for being the first one to wish (:

Thanks NUMA,SHAHIM,SAM,PRASHANT for making the phonecall and singing me the birthday song though half the time, I was laughing away.Thanks my DEAREST BABES,NESH & HAN for repeating the birthday song almost more than five times.haha (:

Thanks Evan&Fellas for calling and singing.

Thanks Granny-goldfish and Janabanana for the kisses.

Thanks to all those who wished me via friendster comments and smses.

Oh yes, not forgetting prettyboy!Thanks for remembering, you made my day.

The best friends I ever had.I'm more than just happy today, thanks (:

Thank you lord for the people around me.Bless us

<33

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALENA!

Sprung

2008-08-16T13:17:00.002+08:00

I'll be the best you never had.

With sheeps grazing at the open green field.
With the most beautiful house by the side.
With the ever-flowing river.
With the perfect view of the mountains.
With the person you love most.
That's where I want to be right now.
Faraway, some where peaceful.Where noone cares whether time's flying or whether Oh levels' rushing its way to our lives.

Love songs, they kill me.

Ps;Just a simple goodbye could have made my day.I can't possibly hate you for what, I just hate the way you changed me overnight.I just hate the way you make me feel, helpless.I thought I could change you but you ended up changing me.

:S

2008-08-13T20:15:00.005+08:00

ps;goldfish eve (:

I totally screwed my oral. :S

Just my luck to go on coughing at least for two minutes.The teacher even offered me the bottle of water and I was like thank you wearing the world worst smile ever.Just my luck, awesome.Overall, the conversation and picture went on pretty well.Sigh, I just hope I can turn back time.Well, when did I never?

Haha, alright time's running away.

Start mugging people.

68 DAYS TO OH LEVELS :SSSSS

13 days to my birthday, 13 days to prelims.

Am I suppose to rejoice? T_T

Slient scream

2008-08-10T22:42:00.004+08:00

Some things are better left unsaid.At last, this sentence seems to be making sense to me.I wish I was blind so I won't be able to see you.I wish I was deaf not to hear your helpless screams.I wish I was numbed so I wouldn't care this much for you.I've got no words to show how much you mean to me.Do you even know that?I guess you never would.After hearing those tales, everything seems black and white.I didn't knew whether to shut myself up in my room to cry my heart out or to tell you that my heart is in pain because of you.You've got me so undone.This is all happening too fast.Nothing seems to be making sense.The only thing that is on my head is getting done with all these prelims and Os levels.I just hope through this few months, lord will be with me.I feel so helpless.I got everyone to turn to, but I can't seem to open up.Fuck it.

Ps:Please lord, once again.

All I asked from you was his happiness.Nothing much.

I'm sorry.The guilt is killing is slowly.

yours truly,

Eve

090808; The best I ever had.

2008-08-10T15:10:00.006+08:00

But you're still pushing a heart that's only made of steel
And any minute you'll be back to ask me if I got the answer now.

She still waits for me-Cinema Bizarre

HAPPY BELATED 43rd BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE.

Huns&Duds, thanks for the most memorable night yesterday (:

Nine in the afternoon

2008-08-02T19:10:00.003+08:00

Time and tide waits for no men.Another week passed, another week closer to Oh levels.Just the thought of it so heart-wrenching.I guess today's saturday is the worst saturday I ever spent.Actually, the fact that I don't bother making my life exciting by going out or even going down for a while.I rot at home gorging myself with all those snacks and chocolates.Maybe the chemicals in the chocolates would make me a happy person.-.- Watched a real doleful hindi movie.It made me cry million tears, seriously I was watching the movie with the whole tissue box in my hands.Luckily noone was home to see the state I was in, haha.-.- okay, I can't afford to kill anymore time.

Ps;When someone leaves, we think we can't do without them.We feel the world stops moving, but it's only a fact that the reasons we live for changes.Merge your sorrows with happiness, life'd be a better choice then death.
Cheer up people out there, you're not alone. :D

copyrighted.
(words from the movie)

Sick :$

2008-07-31T18:37:00.002+08:00

It's far beyond your reach, it holds a place in time,
Somewhere ahead is the back of the line.
I can't relate to your mistakes, awkwardly speaking with nothing to say.
Caught up in your life, excuses are so lame,
You may be different but I'm still the same.
The reasons that you thought, the intention that you caught,
You say things are simple we both know they're not.
You can't let it go,
You can't but I know.
It's not in what you do, more in what you say.
A million questions asked, the remnants of the past.
You've always been denied, but always by your side.
I've always tried to, to understand you,
the worlds not learning from you.

Summer-Sum 41

Sick :$

2008-07-31T18:37:00.000+08:00

Ps;Sick bird.

Okay, my head is spinning.

To the end

2008-07-26T10:28:00.000+08:00

The walls are falling.Just like a shadow, you are gone.Just like a shadow, you'll come back.The things you said and did, did they ever made sense to you?You changed, I changed.Things can never be the same, like how the hands of time can never be turned.I feel like a genie trapped in a bottle.Sometimes I wish there were medicines for aching heart.Bleeding pictures, bleeding colors, bleeding hearts; I've been through them all.

Lord, bless me.

Bittersweet

2008-07-25T23:57:00.002+08:00

When I was feeling red, I ate rambutans.

When I was feeling blue, I ate rambutans.

When I was feeling yellow, I ate rambutans.
When I was feeling purple, I ate rambutans.

Total rambutans eaten:more than 100, less than 150.

Bless me.

Ps;Seriously, I need do some soul searching.Sigh

Nights.

yellow yellow dirty fellow

2008-07-23T15:50:00.003+08:00

Hands down if you think time's flying?

It had seem like just yesterday July had stepped.Life is a mess right now.

Sigh =/

oh oh oh oh levels.

Check yes.

2008-07-20T19:17:00.001+08:00

you've got me so undone.

Lad the doo.

2008-07-19T21:03:00.004+08:00

Happy belated birthday to CS AND SHAHIM.
Thanks for everything till today.

For being sucha goood friend.

Maybe?

Ps; BELATED.

Madina lake

2008-07-19T14:34:00.000+08:00

She looked at me her eyes were watering
Then I knew that this was about to end
Frozen in that moment, time was standing still
I could feel my heart, sinking from you

Goodbye, she said
There's someone in this world for you
So good luck, She said
I went and found somebody new

And I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up

She walked away and I could hardly breath
Turn around and fell down to my knees
I'm shivering as the truth is settling
I'm sure tomorrow is nothing to do with you

I knew, someday you'd find someone elses lips
So before, you go
Could you just leave me one last kiss?

And I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up

And I, can't lie still
When there's someone else beside you
And I, can cry still
'cause I'm all alone this time

I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up

I remember when you were falling
And I was their just holding onto you
And I remember all those
Scars I wear that you carved in me

And I gave you every waking moment
I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up

And I, can't lie still
When there's someone else beside you
And I, can cry still
'cause I'm all alone this time

I gave you everything you wanted
And now, I know you're giving me up.

Make love in this club :/

2008-07-13T12:27:00.002+08:00

Bones:Hello pau.Go and die.

Joke of 12thJuly2008 :D

Dolls

2008-07-10T21:04:00.003+08:00

I'd be your last option.

F U C K Y O U!

CARED

2008-07-07T22:38:00.001+08:00

I wish I don't.But I do.

07.07.08 ; the 7th heaven.

DO NOT KEEP SECRETS

2008-07-06T19:50:00.002+08:00

Ps; Do not keep secrets.

New motto of Dewacks.Make sense?

Oh well, kitkat and bones assume that I'm first on the list who keeps my feelings to myself.
Well, I guess it's true.I'm used to keeping things to myself and I'm not really affected with the things that goes around me.I guess you guys will know when the times comes.

Let me know the reasons first.

:\

Doubts

2008-07-05T10:02:00.002+08:00

Right now, I feel like a bomb waiting to explode.

You got the reasons, don't ask me why?

berry merry perry

2008-06-29T14:57:00.004+08:00

As tempting as it is to use cold logic to ensnare your new paramour, stop before you regrets your actions. Love isn't a mathematical equation. It's part emotion and part magic.

Shall I or shall I not?

In a state confusion.

Adam&Eve

2008-06-28T14:30:00.004+08:00

& now I'm in a state of dilemma.Haven't I had always wanted this? And now when you're back, why do I feel so empty? I feel like a fool at times.A serious fool.I can't help much these emotions that are running through me.I just want to know the reason why.

Ps; Under the stars.

octopus or goat?

2008-06-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

The question I never wanted to be asked.

He did.

& I pretended.

Cause I don't wish for you to know the truth.

Sorrry.

yours truly,

ALLLLY.

Rains&Storms.

2008-06-21T22:09:00.002+08:00

There will be a rainbow after every storm.

Believe it, words make sense.

& The sun can't shine on forever,

the rain needs a fall,

everyone needs a taste of bitterness.

Life is not always perfect,

You can't always wear that smile on your face,

Tears needs droppings.

Past is past.Don't let it haunt you down.

Why can't you just live to the present?

CHEER UP BONES.

FALL OR STAND, WE'LL BE HERE FOR YOU.

<33

Motivation

2008-06-18T21:27:00.004+08:00

You can do it.

Prove it and he's yours to keep.

That's my motivation for the year.Acutally, kitkat and I were finding ways to motivate ourselves with all those cranky ideas and finally she thought of it.Though, I already know this thing isn't going to work out in the end, I believe in you still..But, I am really desparate do well for O levels but I just can't seem to concentrate.I don't wish for my biggest fear to be true.I fear to disappoint my parents.Sigh.They really seem to have high hopes on me which I totally detest.I've been putting abit of an effort to study at few hours this holiday.As time goes on, I really hope I will get into more serious mood.It's just a matter of few more months and I believe I can do it.

Ps; Just a reminder to myself. :D

Grasshopper

2008-06-16T11:52:00.003+08:00

Oh when he smiles, the time stops.

Holiday is ending.

Sighhhhhh :(

Party popper

2008-06-13T13:51:00.001+08:00

Lata's party rocked.